Blessed Memories

Change. It is not something that is easy for most. Even when it's for the better. Adapting oneself to make the change may take longer for some if one does not embrace the change.

And it gets even more difficult when you add matters of the heart into the equation...

Like a broken love affair for example. Or a failed marriage. 

Or death. Especially death of someone very close to you. Someone you practically live and breath with. Now I am not surprised when some people find it difficult to live and breath when something like this happens.

Worse still when it happens so suddenly. A road accident. A heart attack. Heart breaking indeed!

So. In a way, I feel blessed and thankful. Blessed that I have been given the time to prepare my self and my girls. Right from the beginning we have been hoping and praying for the best and yet preparing for the worst to happen. At any time. 

In addition, we had the good fortune to spend a lot of quality time together. Right till the end. So when it actually happened, it was hard, yes, but it did not feel like its the end of the world. I have to confess though that my brain actually went blank for awhile. I guess no matter how prepared we are we will never be totally prepared! Thanks goodness for friends and relatives who were there to take over matters at hand.

Concern friends and relatives frequently ask how we are doing. My usual answer is, it gets easier each day. Time heals, so they say. It has been only 20 days today after all. Of course we miss him.  Especially on a day like today.

Yup. We miss him dearly. And we will always will. But eventually every time we think of him, it will bring smiles instead of tears, laughter instead of sorrow. We will remember fondly of the many good times that we shared. Even the time when we were practically living in the hospital, we had some days of fun and laughter. Those precious moments will never be forgotten.

To all family members and friends, thank you for the kind thoughts, doa's, visits, and most important of all the emotional support extended to me and my girls during those trying time. We are eternally grateful for all you have done and only Allah can ever repay your heartfelt kindness. Jazakamullahu khairan kathira. May Allah rewards you an abundance eternal reward.

And in the occasion of the day, Eid Mubarak everyone! May Allah accepts our good deeds especially in  Ramadhan, and keep us steadfast in the straight path. Ameen.

Maaf zahir batin.