Allah The All Knowing

With Him are the keys of the Unseen.

No one knows them but He.

He knows what is in the land and the sea.

No leaf ever falls but that He knows about it, 

and there is no grain in the dark layers of the earth, 

or anything fresh or dry that is not recorded in a manifest book. 

Surah Al-Naam 6:59

Tired Retiree

Lately I have this feeling that I should not be wearing too much pink. You know, an all pink jubah or baju kurung. Suddenly I feel that its not age appropriate anymore. 

The thing is, since when do I consider age in relation to any behaviour? Not before. Well ok. Except for physical activities that are lilmited due to health reasons or a wonky knee like in my case. So I figure this must be another post retirement blues. (See my earlier post). 

Actually, that was not the first thought that I have. There was also another behaviour which I brought up to my girls that I should not be doing. And they just grinned. Not saying yay or nay. So, me think that perhaps it not appropriate after all. But for the life of me, I couldn't remember what it was! Tsk. Tsk.

So seeing that now I have started to attend knowledge sharing sessions (majlis ilmu) on a regular basis, perhaps I do have to dress and behave more appropriately. Anyway, I can always make good use of a few jubah dress that I used during my period of eddah. Yup. Just the ticket. Plain. Dark. The funny things is the pink jubah dress that I bought were also purchased during my eddah days too. To be worn after my eddah to mark the end of my mourning period. So happened that there were days that I was bored out of my wit during those days I ended up doing quite a number of shopping on line. Tee hee....

Anyway, back to our topic. What are the age approriate behavior anyway? What do you think? For a women of the late 50ies? 

Do tell...! 

          

April Spring

When I decided to retire and do 'nothing' for a while or at least a year, some friends said that I will be bored after 3 months. April marks my third month of being a lady of leisure. I must say that it has not really been a total leisure in a sense for I have been busy here there and everywhere. And definitely not bored yet. With May promising to be an even more eventful month, insyaAllah ,  I will definitely pass the 3 months yardstick with flying colors. 😁

One thing though the pleasure of not having work pressure and I-can-do-anything-I-want flip-hair attitude is slowly wearing down. Especially after the national tragedy of flight MH370. I keep having this feeling of helplessness and I-wish-I-can-do-more creeping in more often than I like. Usually I can shake off any issues outside of my circle of influence easily. But this time the feeling still lingers. Somehow. I reckon the tragic incident has affected me more than it should. Not that I know anyone on the plane personally. 

I also find that I get riled up more easily. To some friends who suddenly find me being defensive and aggressive over the matter of how the govt is handling the situation, please bear with me. It must be post retirement blues. Well, I have to blame it on something. 😁

One thing for sure my feelings is still for the family of those on board MH370 and I have faith that our govt has done all the right thing in handling the situation. If there is any conspiracy or external politics or even worldwide politics, I am playing dumb for now. 

We shall wait and see. 

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